Sept 8 Update

Wow, I haven’t written on Tumblr in eons. I just finished reading my good friend’s handwritten journal from our time in Shanghai this summer and it’s making me feel really reflective. 

I’ve been feeling a little lost lately. I feel like there are so many different parts of who I am that I’m not entirely sure what my “identity” is anymore. When I’m in my recruiting mode, I think that everything Greek related is a waste of time. When I’m in my Greek mode, I don’t want to study or spend hours taking notes. I fluctuate between “social Steph”, “business Steph”, and “weird normal self Steph” and it’s hard to find a balance sometimes when my environment is always changing. Who exactly am I if I am so many different people? Even thought these are all facets of my one self, it seems like I keep changing roles and it’s a little bit draining on me. 

Sidenote: I need to learn to think better of the people I work with that I don’t like. Instead of letting them sour my mood all the time, I have to get used to the fact that I am going to be around them often and not let it get to me. 

I’ve learned that you can tell a lot about a person by the way he/she handles these three things: a rainy day, lost luggage, and tangled Christmas tree lights. I’ve learned that regardless of your relationship with your parents, you’ll miss them when they’re gone from your life. I’ve learned that making a “living” is not the same thing as making a “life.” I’ve learned that life sometimes gives you a second chance. I’ve learned that you shouldn’t go through life with a catcher’s mitt on both hands; you need to be able to throw something back. I’ve learned that whenever I decide something with an open heart, I usually make the right decision. I’ve learned that even when I have pains, I don’t have to be one. I’ve learned that every day you should reach out and touch someone. People love a warm hug, or just a friendly pat on the back. I’ve learned that I still have a lot to learn. I’ve learned that people will forget what you said, people will forget what you did, but people will never forget how you made them feel.